I spent part
of the weekend with my three grown sons. I emphasize “grown.”
The youngest
is approaching 30. When they left me on Saturday night, I have to admit, I had
a bit of an emotional meltdown. The rest of the weekend I pondered why…why did
I hate waving good-bye?
I think it
is because I remember every moment of their birth, the growing pains…their
stupid antics that got them in trouble and the decisions they made that I wish
I could have made for them.
Part of my
melancholy was because we are not able to spend much time together as a group
anymore. They have their own families…and this weekend blew by like a freight
train….just like our lives.
And the other
part of my emotion was my realization that I’m getting older too. I only have
to look into the mirror to see my Dad. Sometimes, I can feel genetics kick in
and things fall out of my mouth that used to fall out of his. It’s rather
remarkable.
Time is really
the enemy. The good Lord gives us so much time to do good things here and then
we get called home. There’s nothing sad or melancholy about that. The sadness
should be directed to people who don’t believe in that destiny.
So, I think
I need to say… I’m proud of my sons….what they have become….the way they care
for their families….and the passion they put into their careers. They know I am
a phone call away…and…
There will
be other weekends.
At the age of 65 I am feeling the exact way you do Mike. I also feel like my children have little time for me just like the Jim Croce song "Time in a Bottle". They just dont realize we dont live forever. ��
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